Perspective
Sometimes the whole world seems hopeless,
Where an individual feels simply alone
It’s easy to believe that nobody cares
Many dreams fall short to overpow’ring despair
Even in the midst of a large crowd of people
One can easily drown in the state of nothingness
Nothing more than a thing, a mass filling the space
Seemingly unimportant and not that special
Surrounded by much lively and happy chatter
The tongue is tied, paralyzed from lengthy speeches
Causing one to feel invisible and lonely
Who deep inside wishes someone would then notice
While walking down that forever stretch of hallway
One passes many varieties of faces
Some ignoring, some unhappy and some happy
The latter radiates a bright sunshine-like glow
The cloudy door opens. Those sunny rays peek through
And through those people, a glow of happiness
Revealing a vast crowd of beautiful faces
No longer long seems the distance of the hallway
The need to be noticed diminishes a bit
As well as feeling invisible and lonely
Inactive as the tongue may be there is still love
Resonating around throughout the bright chatter
Enlightened to feel importance and specialness
One sees in this space something that’s not just plain mass
And feels saved from the depths of a deep nothingness
Especially within a large crowd of people
Though dreams may fail, a tiny light still shines ahead
Somewhere out there, nearby or far, someone will care
Angels, loved ones, friends will see that no one’s alone
Empowering the hearts with Hope and inward peace
Comments:
Being quiet and introverted, there are often many occasions where I am faced with having to deal with being in rooms with large crowds. When the energy is high, it may overwhelm me, and it is possible that the energy causes me to withdraw into myself. I retreat into my own mind, because everything around me is too much. It's my own way of escaping when I can't physically leave, but I have to be careful when I get into this state, because it makes me quite vulnerable to my own thoughts. Overloaded with the surrounding energy, I become acutely sensitive to my own "weakness" as you might call it, unable to join the energy and suddenly feeling swollen up into a deep pit where no one sees me and I'm just a mass filling a space. That's the best way I can currently describe the feeling. It's the feeling of being a nobody, and that no one cares whether you are there or not. It's an easy mindset to sink in to.
On the other hand, there are other times when I am with a large group of people, excited and energetic as the other group, yet I feel right at home. The energy strengthens me and lifts me up and I have a great time. I don't feel like a nobody, and it doesn't matter to me how many people notice me, because I'm happy enough as I am. I leave the experience uplifted and inspired to make life better. I'm not leaving mulling over my weaknesses, but energized in my strengths. It's a beautiful feeling, like being freed from a cage.
So what is it that makes these two situations different? Why was I so withdrawn and hard on myself one time, but enjoying every minute of the other? Perhaps there were several reasons, but one element had a great influence on me: Where I made my focus affected where my thoughts went as well as how enjoyable the event was. It all comes to the focus, for where your focus is, so your reality will be also. Look at the world negatively, and it will be a negative experience. Look at it positively, and it will be a positive experience.
