The harder I try,
The worse I get.
Blinded by darkness,
Taking one bad step,
Then another,
And another,
My spirit is tried.
My strength is worn.
Exhausted from frustration,
My balance is waning.
I see nothing,
Yet onward I step.
Knowing my vulnerability,
I trip and fall.
It's discouraging.
Haunted by the past
With bad memories
And frightening emotions
Staring at me,
Lying to me,
Telling me to give up,
It's hopeless.
But behind those lies,
A small quiet voice,
Contradicting them,
Urging me to keep trying,
Telling me to move on,
Because as dark as it seems,
Light awaits!
Happiness anticipates my arrival.
Joy has an embrace reserved.
Hope wants to share its power.
Love waits to consume me.
Upon my arrival,
I shall see
My strength,
My endurance,
My patience,
With my darkness cast aside!
Commentary:
Had to sit down this morning and quickly write this out to help me express something that is lurking inside of me. I'm not sure if I was able to completely get it all out, but this is a good step in the right direction. I had a rather difficult day yesterday with some negative things lurking in my mind, so I needed to get some of it out before those things start setting in for today also. I've said before that poetry has always been a sort of therapy for me to help me change my perspective into a better one. It is also that time of year when I begin preparing for my annual holiday poem, so this is a great start to get myself into the right poetic mode for that holiday poem. From the stress and anxiety that was slowly building over the years, my holiday poems were getting increasingly more difficult as the stress was causing my mind to lack the focus I needed to get something written. I still feel a little bit of difficulty, but I've been experiencing the ability slowly coming back now that circumstances have changed and what was causing that stress is no longer there to inhibit my thinking and reflection.
Hopefully, I'll have something ready soon for the holidays.
